JW and I sat down and started to talk. The time was good enough that there were two people who can give us advise and stuff. We started to meet many pastors to get permission (so they wouldn’t stop us).

JW invited one person to our group, and I didn’t have big expectation towards him since I failed once. I don’t know if he really has same vision. His name was HS. HS brought some other friends from his Bible study group. I invited two people from CAMPUS graduates. So there were 5of us. We decided to go retreat among ourselves so we can have meetings and worship together. One had to work on Sunday, so 4 of us went together. We have decided many things.

We wrote down the list of speakers, date, venue, sponsor ministries, and president too. It was quit hard. I was a secratary from the very beginning since I can’t stop myself from writing all the things happening at that moment. And there were to candidates. We, I prayed so much since I didn’t know who to choose. Finally I chose JW, and he became our leader. The one I met from GYC 2009.  And I still didn’t know if I chose the right person since this work will be so much bigger than we can imagine.

p.s) I realized that the meeting I started very fisrt wasn’t waist since HS came up to us and said that he want to join us. And HS did such a great job for God.

I was very interested in GLOW. I brought a lot of samples from U.S., and started to translate some of them. I got an email from GLOW US that there is a person who is interested in Korean GLOW. I contacted the person, and we met in the church. I was astonished because he was preaching that we need to do GYC in Korea. I was very very excited. He introduced me some of his friends who are eager to spread tracks. But my focus was all in Korean GYC.

I said my prayer and ran to the junior pastor who used to tell me he had same vision before GYC US started. I talked him that we will have to start GYC Korea this year. He agreed. He and I started to gather some people. I gather some spiritual people who knows Bible very well, who has lots of friends, who is very smart.

When we gathered “committee members”, they were all spiritual and seems nice. The more time passed by, the harder to convince them. I realized something went wrong. But I couldn’t stop meeting them because that was certainly answer of my prayer. I didn’t want to fail. I didn’t want to let them go. I didn’t want to start all over again. I hoped for them to change their mind and work with me. But they didn’t have desire to start a movement since they are already experienced, because they tried these kind of thing, because they are sure that this would fail.

Above all, I realized the junior pastor I trusted was against GYC. And he was scared to start such thing. I felt pretty betrayed and cried so much. It was very insulting how he assaults where I am convicted to give my life to.  It was humiliating to get attack where I want so desperately. This was a time where my whole life seems to be upside down. I got attack constantly quite for a long time. That’s where I met HG. He is a man of prayer. He advised me that I and JW (current JAERIM president) should start from the beginning with just two of us. Some told me that several times, and weird enough that JW got very busy that he couldn’t come to the meeting often.

After lots of prayer, JW and I decided to leave the group, and the group disappeared since the group was the one I started.

When I was in CAMPUS, I’d prayed much to find my spiritual coworker. I had some kind of pressure that I need to do something for God, and I need just a one person to do that. I didn’t know exactly what I want to do , but kept praying. I went to GYC on that winter. It was after about 3~4 months of praying. That’s how I met the president of JAERIM (Korean GYC). I could recognize him on sight. I ran to him among 7,000 people, and I told him “you are from Samyook University”. He agreed. He told me that he also saw me from university. He said he came all the way from Korea just to see GYC. I couldn’t understand his passion for GYC. Why would he want to come just to see this? Anyway, I said my prayer to God that I decided my mind to work with him for God. 

I found out his email address from my friend, and that was it for that time. We just didn’t know what to do. And he was quite boring… and hard to communicate. He was a sincere Christian for sure though :p 

Eli answered, “God in peace, and may the God of Israel grant you what you have asked of him.” She said, “May your servant find favor in your eyes.” Then she went her way and ate something, and her face was no longer downcast. -1Samuel 1:17~18

Knowing that God will  reward with the best for me gives me thrill of joy. He  who never disappoints me gives me numerous  gifts at the same time to fill my heart.With hearty complement, He makes me impressed.

It would be wonderful if I could look at a garden of light blue hydrangea. It would be beautiful if I could see them for hours and hours and not being weathered. It would be gracious to smell very soft, almost scentless hydrangeas very much closely to my nose. It would be impressive to shake softly their heads with my right hand.

Wanting to keep them near. Wanting to see them long.

Wanting to touch them while they have no anger against anything.

We are starting a new church. I am very excited to be the one. I am very thrilled to be the first generation.

We had meeting whole day today. We shared our vision, burden, interests, and strengths. It’s not a worship place. It’s not a Sabbath social gathering. This time, it is real CHURCH!

8 million had gathered for New Year celebration.

What’s up with striking a bell?  Someday soon, when we get the latter rain spirit, the whole Korea will change.

This time, they will crazy for Jesus.

The last night for the camp meeting, we had foot-washing ceremony.

We had 8 girls and 3 boys in my group. I asked one guy to take care of the other two guys. And I was thinking myself how should I devide the group. Some suggested to make pairs, but I just decided to wash all of them.

It was very much memorable monent to wash so many people at the same time. I prayed for their friends, family, study, life, and salvation. Not everyone was serious Christian, but all people were touched, and cried.

I shared a short message how Jesus showed humiliation in front of his disciples. Who do you think Jesus washed the longest? Possibly Judas Iscariot. Jesus talked to him one more last time. It’s not over yet. Please come back to me. We can fix this togethr. I still love you.

We all heard that voice from Jesus. It was such a beautiful moment.

Pastor JK is in Korea!!! Yeah!

When I was in Michigan, I wanted to invite J in Korea very very much. I was thinking 2011 summer, but even better we got to invite him this year winter. I don’t know what did I do, but I’ve prayed a lot before I put into practice anything. And I listend so much of his sermon. haha this is pretty funny, but I just thought it would be good for me  to know his style so that I can help as much as I can. (in terms of translation stuff)

I’ve talked to several pastors, convinced them boldly. I have started to advertise even before school gave me permission. When school permitted, I got a bit worried. I was so much worried like “who will be translator, he speaks so fast, he uses all the not understandable American expressions, what if people don’t like him, what’s the point of bringing him all the way from America?” Honestly, I think I prayed so much so that I don’t get blame. I prayed so hard that every students’ life can change. I prayed that Holy Spirit can bless with gift of tongue.  I prayed God can just tear everyone’s heart and come in.

God blessed the speaker so much. He blessed the translator. He blessed all the students and me. God blessed the camp meeting so much. It was truly the most blessing and life changing camp meeting ever in my life.

God, thank you so much. I don’t know why God loves me so much… it’s just amzaing. I don’t know why God loves me so much. I mean it’s great!

I was very very joyful to see JK. How much will I be more joyful to see God?! I can’t wait to see Him.

People have different weakness.

My friend(I can call her my friend now) who is very very passionate Christain, she also has weakness. She is a type of person who wants to preach the gospel in the bus. She is crazy with preaching the gospel. I can say that she is really crazy for Jesus. She reads a lot of spiritual books. She has more knowledge than average pastors.

But she is obsessed with beauty. She thinks there should be no one more beautiful than her. She even gets mad at celebrities haha. She got jealous of everyone including me because I was close with some guy who she is obsessed with. She argues with people. I was very shocked to see these things. And I looked at myself.

I put on mask of Christain, I am spraying perfume of missionary, and I have so much dirt and sin inside me. I was quite scared others to realize my sin and hiding tightly. I was reliving  myself thinking that I am not like her that I am not hypocracy. haha but I am even worse!

I confess my weakness to God, and I asked God to mold me in His way. I ask God to chage me everyday. I don’t know if I changed daily, but I, I am definatly changed. I pray one day, before Jesus comes, I can be clean and white as snow.